Tohay has been good so far! I'm at work and I've had about a 1/4 cup of banana chips. Salad with cucumbers, bellpeppers and 1 chicken breast for lunch. For a snack I've had 1/2 a bell pepper. I haven't got to excercise yet but I'm hoping to tonight. I planned on having bbq beef sandwiches for dinner. I am going to just have lettuce with some bbq beef over it. I haven't been sleeping the last week or so. I fall asleep til about 11 and am wide awake. I have been taking some temazepam that the Dr gave me after Bryce and it has knocked me out but I'm getting worried because its been happening for like a week now. I also have been having some abdominal pain. Kind of comes and goes. Achey and annoying. I don't know what it is. I thought maybe like cramps but I've had it for about a week now too! I'm really sick of it. I started out weighing 161 after Bryce and now I'm 144. I'm still have quite a bit of weight to loose. I hope that I can finish this. I want to weigh at least 125. We are going to go camping tomorrow with my family. I think I'm going to take some of my own food so it is easier to stay on track. Wish me luck...

I was supposed to work today and I did til like 2:30 but then I came home because there were no patients in the ICU. We hada code come in but the code was called pretty much as soon as the pt got there. Kaleb had his short day today so he got home at 2:30 too. We ran some errands and then came home and cleaned up the house and I made Moon Pie for a church potluck. We went to the potluck and had a great time. We visited with Rachelle and Jeff Massey and Amie and Rusty Bigelow. I enjoyed it. We got a call earlier on in the day to go see the Bishop. Well I totally thought it was for Kaleb because he just got released from young mens. Well I was sure suprised because they called me to be 2nd counselor in the RS. I have been secretary and have really enjoyed the calling. 2nd counselor will be a bit more responsibility because I will have to give lessons and conduct and visit members of the ward but I'm excited to do it. I love to be busy and to be involved. The Bishop asked Kaleb to support me and Kaleb and I had a really good talk about it.

As far as health living today and my previous goals. I ran 2 miles this morning which felt good of course. It always does and I'm always glad tha I did it. I had a smoothie for breakfast which was celery, spinach, carrots, strawberries, yogurt and fat free milk. For lunch I had a tortilla with deli meat and a slice of provolone cheese. Then for dinner we had the poluck and I didn't gorge myself but ate kind of what I wanted. I hope that I'm doing enough. We will see.

The boys were so awesome today. I love there little smiles and their kisses. I love to kiss Brodys cheeks. We read thru the ensign and Koby is understanding more and more. I love it.

Anyway I guess I'll leave it at this for tonight.

Today I've eaten so far
Smoothie which contains 1 banana, 5 strawberries, 1/4 cup greek yogurt, 1 celery stick, and a handful of spinach with 1/4 cup fat free milk.

1/2 turkey sandwich

6 in meatball marinara sub with baked barbeque chips from subway

I haven't eaten dinner yet but I will have 1/2 chicken breast and salad no dressing.

I split the smoothie with my boys so I didn't eat all of it. I ran 2 miles on the treadmill and walked a 1.5 miles with some of my friends. Not too bad. I shouldn't have had the meatball marinara. I am still confident though if I eat the right things tonight. I woke up at 5 this morning and ran and then cleaned the house. I went walking with Kara Merrill and Cassie Morris. I had a RS meeting at 9 and then from there we've just been playing outside. Kaleb and I went on a drive while the boys slept and just visited about what our plans fort he future are with our land and thinking about building. We aren't sure with our land if we could do like a half basement because the land is kind of sloped. Kaleb wants to choose plans right now and go ahead and have the foundation pored. I want to wait and save up our money for 5 or 7 years... whatever we decide and just do it all at once. He thinks we will be able to save more money in the long run if we do it a little at a time. I don't care. I just want it all to be done at once. We will see. We have been saving for like 4 months so far and have $9000. So we will see. I'm happy to be saving. Anyway I feel happy today. Kaleb worked last night and slept just for a little bit and now he is out with Mike Wiltbank. I think they were going to go shooting. I just did some coloring pages and activities with the boys and now they are watching Open Season. I work tomorrow and the next day. I wish I didn't but oh well. I guess its good. I'm excited because I feel like I'm starting to get some friends. I got invited to do this Bunco Group and I went walking with some girls today. I can't believe how much of a difference it makes just to have some people to hang out with. I really want to try hard to be a good friend. Thats something that I really need to work on. I need to plan another craft day and invite them over. Well...I guess I'll go for now.

I am making three short term goals. They start tomorrow and they last for 7 days.

1. Write in journal everyday for 7 days.

2. No extra carbs. Like no rice with chicken. No taco shell with tacos..

3. Exercise 5 out of 7 days.

I am going to be using bodybugg now for the whole calories in calories out thing but I may still write in here periodicaly on how progress is going.

I forgot to add that my total calorie burn was 2178 yesterday.

Today...
I worked again today. I was bummed because I was planning on having salad from the cafeteria for lunch and then they decided to have a potatoe bar. I didn't have anything else to eat so I had a baked potatoe with all the fixings. Then for dinner I had a turkey sandwich. Total calorie count is 889. I'm kind of suprised. I thought it would be more. I'm not sure how to count some of thge things on the potatoe and I don't think its exactly right but...whats done is done. I did very good on water today. It was not quite as busy as yesterday. All in all it was a good day. I am struggling because I Ramsey and McKenzie invited me to do another half marathon May 1st. Its Sunday...I'm bummed about that and I'm not sure what to do. I really want to run antoher one and I need the motivation of those guys. McKenzies husband only has Sundays off so thats why they picked this one. I don't want to feel guilty but i would really like to run it. What should I do?